if this is IT

very excited to learn this week that i’ve been chosen to read one of my happinest blog posts (it’s a secret) at the blogher conference in chicago next month. wow!

obviously, i’ve been slam-blasted with my new FT gig (eh em paid gig) and leaving happinest to sit empty in all its loneliness. however, i feel like i’m getting in a rhythm and maybe soon i’ll make it back to this place. it’s hard to know what’s next. maybe something new. maybe nothing new.

today i’m not all that bothered by the idea that this, what i’ve got right here, right now today, may be “IT.” i know i’ve hit times where the idea of any period in my life being “IT” was the most terrifying feeling. but right now, in this moment, i feel pretty content. ed’s really happy in his new job. clyde’s having a fun summer, despite falling and scraping his forehead, nose in three places, and upper lip (ouch!) and having to learn to apply the three steps of conflict resolution. leo’s doing great, despite the fact that he all but sticks his fingers in his ears and says lalala whenever we try to mention the word “potty.” and i’m doing, well, much better with juggling work and home, thanks to FT childcare, ed having weekends off again, and a new division of labor. so so grateful for the job and feeling closer to finding a “work voice” i can live with (and hopefully someday be proud of) every day.

i do miss my friends and socializing a lot (working at home can be lonely too and we’re all so busy), but i’m trying to work that out. trying to get something going.

the world’s laziest hummingbird lives in my backyard. he goes branch to branch in the pomegranate tree and *sits* drinking from the blossoms.

and also, it’s hot. which is stupid.

hopefully more to come. if you still come by this place, then thank you. if you’re new, then hello and thank you for visiting my often-empty happinest.

also, don’t miss the newest issue of this joy+ride with poems by brad buchanan. and you can still find photos regularly over at today is pretty.